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I was inferior
before
But I am healed now!
I
am Emilia, 30 years old. I’ve belonged to
Jesus already 12 years. I’ve considered myself
to be a worthless and an inferior one since my childhood.
If somebody did something successfully this was
what I thought at once, “He is doing much
better than I do. I would never be able to manage
it like him.”
When I received Jesus as my Lord
and Savior I thought I wasn’t worthy to serve
Him. Sometimes inferiority was so much that I felt
I was sinking; there was no air to breathe.
In summer 2004, for the first time
in my life I went to a spiritual camp. Holy Spirit
was doing magnificent works there. Miracles were
happening every day. One day, during the ministry
I was delivered too. I should say frankly that it
was a surprise to me. I felt as it my eyes were
closed and I thought there was no need for me to
be delivered. Inferiority was gone! Nothing in the
world can be compared with the relief that I’ve
been feeling since that day. I felt very happy and
free. But the thing was that it wasn’t the
final deliverance… Lord had left the last
battle for me to have against my inferiority. He
was beside me but it was me who ought to win the
battle. You can’t imagine how much I love
Him for this. The terrible events, which happened
to me during the next year, came to prove me that
again I was going right into the bosom of inferiority
and rejection. Nothing else remained but to pity
myself till the end of my life. But he had quite
another plan for my life and it was wonderful…
I won the battle together with Him. On my birthday,
October 12, I did something I hadn’t ever
done before. Holy Spirit was upon me and He had
come to give me a wonderful present. I stood in
front of a mirror, looked at me and thanked him
for creating me as I am together with my abilities
and which is the most important with my appearance.
Surprisingly I always considered me very ugly, but
since that day up to now I’ve looked upon
myself as a beautiful one. And don’t think
that it’s selfishness, because Jesus has created
me the way He liked me to be and none of His creations
is bad as ugly… believe me!!!
Now I’m free. I fell I can
fly. I’ve big wings. And I am going to keep
the promise I gave Him years ago that I will not
die but live and proclaim what the Lord has done.
All glory to Jesus alone. Amen.
Emilia Stepanyan
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My mother left me in orphanage….
But I forgive her and take care of her many
years later.
I’ve yearned to live together with my mother
since my childhood. But I couldn’t ever imagine
that I would have to look for her myself. I grow
up in an orphanage. Every time the parents came
to visit there children I felt even lonelier. I
remember me standing in the corner, looking at them
with tears in my eyes and one could easily see the
suffering of a little girl who longed for family,
for her mother, her love, her tenderness and caress…
years were passing.
As an 18-years old student together with my future
husband I began searching for my mother. We did
our best and our efforts weren’t in vain.
So, I found her. It goes without saying that the
meeting was going to be very difficult. So, I entered
the house where she lived with my aunt and her husband.
She wasn’t at home. Of course, I didn’t
want to introduce myself to my aunt and her husband
but I hardly had spoken a word when they recognized
me. A bit later my mother came… no words can
describe the disappointment that I felt. She came
up to me, hugged and kissed me. But I felt a strange
cold inside of me. I didn’t want to see her
to listen to her let alone to communicate with her.
Even worse, I discovered that I hated her. I couldn’t
forgive her for those severe 17 years I had spent
alone. So I found her just to lose again…
In 1987 I heard spiritual songs for the first time.
In 1991 a war broke out between Armenia and Azerbaijan
and my family and I was captured by the Turks. There
was not a single ray of hope of escaping or being
saved and I made a covenant with God that if we
were set free I would devote my life to Jesus. To
everybody’s surprise we survived and this
was one of the greatest miracles that God performed
in our life. Coming back I began attending church.
One day the sermon was about loving and forgiving
the parents. It shook me! Though it was too difficult
for me I decided to obey God’s word and asked
my mother to come and live with us. She agreed gladly.
It was the 7th of July, 1995. I thought that my
deed would release my pain but as I found later
I‘d been seriously misled. It was now that
my spiritual life was to begin. It turned out to
be difficult for me to dear her presence and I always
kept reminding her the bitter days of my past. But
I realized I must change. So, along with the prayers
that I had for forgiving my mother, I also witnessed
her about Jesus. She always listened to me very
carefully and soon accepted God’s call to
be His child. When she repented she began praying
for our family very actively. Forgiveness brought
with it reconcilement, trust and love. On April
24, 2001 she joined her heavenly family. We were
consoled with the idea that hearing and obeying
God we turned the impossible into possible.
Hasmik Grigoryan
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I lost
my eleven years old daughter and 28 relatives in
earthquake in1988.
But God healed me from that pain.
It
was 11:40 a.m. 1988. Death came to our city Gumri.
Earthquake shook every thing, dust, cries, and then
death…
Like thousands of people who lost someone I lost
my daughter, Inessa. She was only 11 years old.
I couldn’t release myself completely because
of my important position which I had in the city.
Time passed and I received the message of the Gospel.
I found God but there was something that I couldn’t
be freed from; it was Inessa. By surrendering to
God a new strength came to my life and I started
to serve God.
After some time I lost my husband and mourning
entered to my life again. I felt dark and empty.
I was surrounded with loneliness, sadness, and depression.
I felt the Holy Spirit trying to comfort me but
there was something wrong. I was still mourning
in the deepest parts of my heart. I taught Sunday
school teachers, encourage people with a smile where
on the contrary there was no happiness in my heart.
Year after year, days before and after December
7th (the anniversary of the earthquake), I would
be depressed, alone, sad and sick until July 2001.
There was a new wave of revival in the church. We
would pray and new anointing would bring healing
to people in the church. While everybody was being
touched by the Holy Spirit and God’s presence
I felt a rebellion in me. Something was wrong with
me. One day during prayer service, I lost peace
and couldn’t pray anymore. I stood up to leave
when someone saw me and tried to stop me by hugging
me.
“Sister Etera what’s going on with
you, why are you angry?”-She said.
“Let me go”-I shouted.
They had never seen me like this. I suddenly crashed!!!!
Others told me later that my face had turned red
as if I had high blood pressure. I was crying and
no one could stop me. Mourning was spilling out
of my heart and and bursting out of my mouth. I
was weeping for my daughter by saying:
''Inessa jan, my dear, you left me, where are
you....
I wanted to go, didn’t want to stay any longer.
That’s when my pastor and his wife came to
help me. They took me into a separate room. Spirit
of mourn was gushing out. The presence of the Lord
had brought out this mourn and I could no longer
cover it in the debts of my heart. They started
to pray for me by rebuking the spirit of mourn and
death. During this time I remembered all the relatives
who had died during the earthquake. While weeping
I would shout out my daughters name as if it was
the day of her funeral.
The power of God through the prayer started to release
me from that bondage I was in. It took about 30
minutes for me to gradually realize the healing
that was taking place in my heart. As peace took
over I let go of Inessa and became freed from that
bondage.
At the end of prayer I felt that my inner person
was healed. At the end of the prayer I replied:
“Inside of me is like gold now.”
It was shining. The darkness was gone. Happiness
came back. Jesus healed me.
Thank God for his grace, thirteen years of mourning
that I had covered in the depths of my heart was
now gone. I had covered it very well but God revealed
it and healed me. Instead of the ashes the crown
was given to me. Instead of mourn the oil of happiness
according to Isa. 61:3.
Dear friend may you have lost someone and you are
mourning within yourself. Jesus is ready to set
free you. Open your heart in his presence. Rebuke
the spirit mourn. Find someone to pray with.
Jesus is going to wipe your tears away. I pray that
God may give you the same freedom which He gave
me with his grace. God is using me in healings now
and I am grateful in him for ever.
In his service
Etera Yeghoyan
Tel. +374 10 454672
Cell.+374 91 383066
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